03. March
I haven’t got much to say about March. Well, let’s see. Look, I’m just as intrigued to know what I got up to.
March was my ‘unemployment’ month. February ended the way it did and you can read my previous blog post to catch up, but I’ve really just been chillin’ these past 30 days. I’ve been doing what I want, slept in and days have been slow. I’ve had days where I’m super productive and days where I haven’t done much at all. I’m really making it up as I go, which I have been enjoying. All while looking for a new job.
The first weekend of March, my dad and I went to an auction. I find myself looking at real estate a lot these days because I want to get into the property market and buy, but it’s so expensive. I can’t afford anything…yet. My dad always reminds me of the ‘key word’, yet. But I like to check out houses that I think look cute. I feel like going to auctions and inspections is one of my dad and I’s bonding activities. It’s nice and it’s quality time.
One thing that happened that I really enjoyed was Shen Yun, a musical, dance and cultural performance. My mum wanted to go for her birthday so we bought tickets and I went with my parents. The dancers were incredible and I loved how colourful their costumes were. The visuals were amazing. They were so clear and I felt it went perfectly with the performance. I think as well, while I was watching I was living out my once dream of becoming a professional dancer. Just for that two hour performance. I enjoyed more than I thought I would, so it was great.
I could see that my mum was enjoying it too. I saw her leaning forward to get a closer look and I could see that she was taking it all in, and she was loving it so that made me feel good. I don’t get many moments like that with my mum and with my parents and I am really trying to make more of an effort to spend more time with them, and going to this show together was a beautiful moment. I’ve been able to spend more time with my family and pick up my nephew from daycare which has been lovely. I like it too because it gets me out of the house and gets me doing things, not that I’m not doing anything at home, but I am able to get outside and just have a change of scenery.
The job hunt. It’s tricky and I’m finding it hard at the moment, but it is what it is. The market is the market and I can’t change that, so I am consistently looking and applying, as well emailing companies to see if there are any job opportunities available.
One thing I find myself doing is that I’m watching the clock a lot. A couple days ago it was a month since I lost my job, so I’m thinking “ah sh*t, it’s been a month, I need to find a job”. It’s deflating and frustrating, but I'm trying to give myself some credit with the fact that I am trying and I’m not lazing around, but also reminding myself that I got out of a toxic environment and I’m healing too. So, it’s a weird process and I’m doing my best to balance both things.
Have you ever read a job ad and got emotionally attached? I have. I’m thinking like “this is me”. It happened recently, I was really excited about a particular role and thought I’d be a great fit and then the day before my second interview, I got an email saying that they’ve progressed with someone else. It happens and a lot of the time companies don’t even give feedback, so at least I got an email as to why my interview had been cancelled. But, it’s okay. Onto the next.
My dad was really sweet. He said “You’re just one step closer to finding something amazing, so don’t be sad. Mum and I have got your back.” Just the best.